Tamara Johnson’s Diary

A New Journey Begins!

The journey to today began over a year ago. Actually, it began several years ago but I’ll just go back a year. I was introduced to Multi-Level Marketing through an e-mail with and embedded video sent by my publisher. I went to the free meeting that was referenced in the video and was BITTEN by the MLM bug! I bought the visions of freedom and how the product would change my life and the world — I bought it both emotionally and with my credit card.

It didn’t take long for my story of that adventure to be blasted across the internet because of the invitation I accepted to write “Tamara Johnson’s Diary” for the company. Plastering my guts across the internet for the “world” to see was quite an interesting experience. Complete strangers got to know me in a very personal way. They shared my tears, my frustrations, my fears, my triumphs and my innermost thoughts. At first, the best way I can describe it is it’s like the scene in the end of the movie “Bridget Jones’ Diary” — you know the one where she was running down the street in her underwear in the middle of winter? Can you imagine doing that? Ok. Now, imagine doing it in real life in front of the world instead of on a quiet street in a sleepy town. I wrote my diary on a regular basis for about 4 months and during that time, people came to know me and gave me fabulous feedback about who they saw when I opened my insides for all to see. It was terrifying and exhilarating all at the same time; imagine making yourself vulnerable in front of an unseen audience of voyeurs! All of your fears and unfinished business come screaming to the forefront and you hope that you’ll be loved at the same time that you fear being criticized, rejected and abandoned. I’ve never given birth, but it felt like I was birthing a baby for this company. It was very personal, extremely raw and a fabulous growth opportunity all wrapped up in the same package.

I learned some amazing lessons in that process. Although I am no longer with that company, I have realized that being open in the way I did over those 4 months brought tremendous gifts to my life that I have decided to invite back into my life — hence the re-birth and revival of Tamara Johnson’s Diary!

Shortly after Tamara Johnson’s Diary was dropped from the company website without words of warning or thanks, I withdrew myself to spend some time licking my wounds and dealing with my perceptions of having been abandoned. During that time I also withdrew from the world of marketing and networking and home-based business. There were many things I saw in the world of network marketing that I didn’t like. If you’ve ever spent time in the industry, you will know what I’m talking about when I say words like: “hype,” “empty promises,” “big dreams,” and “ineffective leadership.” People get hurt in that world and my conscience would not allow me to invite people into a world where they could potentially be hurt. I can’t stomach the idea of having my misguided enthusiasm hurt other people. That’s why I pulled back.So let me tell you where my journey has taken me.

About a month ago, I was confronted with a potentially empty nest. Having had a strong desire to be a mom my whole life, that felt very difficult to me at the tender age of 42! So, I got on my knees and asked for direction. The direction was given and I got up and began marching; toward helping at-home moms stay with their children instead of having to leave them because of a difficult economy.

I got up and got running right away. Got business cards printed. I planned my strategy for finding and coaching them to success. Then, I started looking for ways to make money online. Drat! That leads to the perpetual draining of the wallet! I felt it.

Still, I kept looking and looking. Then, one day after uploading a YouTube video to my channel (WorkSmartMommies), I browsed some related videos. There, I found Work At Home Dad; he looked and sounded sincere and authentic. Called him. He connected me with people that began the journey anew.

Work At Home Dad sent me to a website: www.starlinknation.com. I clicked the button to listen to the Lady who USED to Be Fat’s mp3 about how the Ice Cream Truck is Coming. As I sat there, I heard a familiar, kindred spirit speaking the words that have been inside of me, unspoken but driving me forward to find that illusive “something.” As she spoke about always knowing there is something more for me to do that drove me forward, the tears began rolling down my face. She was speaking my thoughts. Then, she talked about how society would prefer to put big thinkers/dreamers/doers in a box and keep us there. I knew that, too. She spoke of the next level of development; the thumbing of my nose at the system that would keep me restrained. It was true! I had just spoken to My Beloved that day about how I had thumbed my nose until it was raw at everyone who would impose their expectations on me. I had demonstrated nose thumbing to my daughter the day before with a loud proclamation of: “I don’t care what anybody thinks! They can’t make me small!” I truly was listening to music! Finally, the Lady who USED to be Fat spoke of coming into the self fully. Being present in a way allows a person to stop watching themselves and just act from a place of authenticity. The tears flowed down my face for the entire presentation. I could hear that the Lady who used to be fat was about growing leaders. Intuitively, I knew this was the “real deal.”

When the recording was over, I wanted more. I clicked on the Philosophical Cowboy’s recording. I heard two things: 1) Nobody gets hurt here — with the real reasons that is true — and 2) that He can and will TEACH ME how to succeed in marketing.

That’s all I needed to hear. I knew this was the place for me. The cowboy promised that my energy is my equity. That is music to my ears!

This is the place where I learn to harness my energy for the benefit of those I love. Marketing. The name of the game. I’m in! So I invite you to take this journey with me. Come and sit a while and listen. Hear my heart. Get to know my struggles, my thoughts, my feelings, my triumphs. My deep sharing will invite you deeper into yourself. It’s a journey where we can become friends. I’m inviting you into my heart. And along the way you will see that this is a journey anybody can take — you will learn how to build your business, expand your heart and reach your dreams. I just know this is going to be fun!

One more thing . . . . I set up my diary to read just like a book. Every time you come back, you will see the same beginning page. Just click on the “Index” or “Chapters” page to get to my newest entries.